I am sure this story has been repeated countless times by countless individuals. How does one deal with the pressure of needs? What do I do for such a great need, when I have neither the time nor the finances to help?
I love the Church in Moldova, with all its flaws and problems. It is a good group of pastors and leaders. They don't always agree with each other, and we run the gamut of conservative to non-conservative churches. There are churches that think all Christian women should wear headscarves all the time, just in case they need to pray. There are other churches that allow a simple headband during services, and even allow a little jewelry (gasp)!
But when it is time to work together, we are one Body, one Church.
The church in Casunca is brand new, just a year old. (click here for more info). There are already 40-60 people attending, over a dozen being baptized a couple of months ago. (In Moldova, when you are baptized you are a CORE part of the church, mature and committed. Baptism is not done quickly or lightly).
But they still don't have any building to meet in. They have found a great store building that would serve the purpose, and have already raised and collected about $14,000, mostly from the churches and believers in Moldova, still about $30,000 short of the needed finances. Pastor Stephan sat with me today as we talked about the need.
All I could say was, "we'll see."
I know of $500 that was just given toward the need. I know that I can usually scrounge and scrape up another $1000 from somewhere in my account, from our supporters' monthly giving. (FYI--all support goes straight to the work in Moldova. We don't work on commission! If there is extra in a month, we just plow it into the churches and ministries here).
But I don't know how to answer Pastor Stephan's need. God does.
And God might not want him to have that building tomorrow, too easily. God has a timing for everything. He knows the church's need, and He can bring in the needed resources. And I have to wait. And watch. And trust.
What do I do about the need? The opportunity? Where does God's sovereignty mix with my obedience? If I fail to sacrifice my $5 toward the need, it is my disobedience? Should I passively wait for God to multiply the loaves and fish? Or even more, am I doing nothing because I think my gift or sacrifice is too small and the need is too big? Do too many needs get unfulfilled because I rationalize a $20 gift as a drop in the bucket toward a $30,000 need?
This is not the most orderly blog, but just random thoughts of mine as I reflect on today's meeting. What do I DO to fulfill God's plan for Casunca? What do I NOT do, and trust Him for the miracle? And what can I GIVE to be a part?